accomplishment for the day

Today was a good day! well i wouldnt say good, but it wasnt bad. i finally got up the nerve to talk to my parents about getting on my meds again. this summer i went cold turkey and just stopped taking them. probably one of the stupidest decisions ive made but i guess you could say im doing pretty well making it this far without them. they agreed to start at a lower dosage to see if it'll help just enough. they dont like it when im on medication because i sleep all the time but i dont have a problem with that. it keeps me from eating. but anyways im kind of a dork for saying this but im excited. im really hoping my meds will help me regain my motivation towards life and if im lucky, release enough endorphins to make me happy again! i was worried because with college coming up, i wanted to start on a good note and be fun to be around and i felt that without my meds, i wouldnt be able to have the college experience i'd like to have. Getting back on my meds is only the beginning though. there is so much more i have going on that i havent talked to them about yet. i have a lot to figure out and a lot to decide. i hope i'll have the courage to talk to my parents again. im just relieved today went well and hopefully tomorrow will too.

KHO