Thoughts for the day

Life is unpredicatable. things happen so i can appreciate the better things to come. people come into my life to teach me something about myself i have never seen before. opportunities arise when i least expect them to and with everything that i am faced with, school, friends, family..ive come to find that i have to take this life one minute at a time, and live in that moment. I am chosen to live in this world for some special purpose that i have yet to know..but i have to hold onto that hope of realizing that the things i have experienced and the people ive met will all come together and shed light on a dark world.

just thoughts that came to mind :)

KHO

2010

It's my sophomore year at UK now. School is very very difficult and I am having a hard time staying motivated. I do love it here. I met so many amazing people this year already that i know will have a place in my heart forever.

My 20th birthday was wednesday and Kat Von D wished me a happy birthday on the phone :) probably the greatest thing that has happened to me!

Hmm, well, i guess i can say at this point that I am doing much better with things. I recently had a relapse but i havent let that hinder my progress. A lot has happened here in Kentucky since I've moved back. one situation in particular has changed my view on life and people. I was out partying with friends a couple weeks ago and one of my friends went home to find a man in her apartment who assaulted her and left her there too die. It wasn't until the next morning her roommate found her and took her to the hospital. He had broken many bones in her cheeks, fractured her skull, broke her hand, and had made many bruises with swelling....i can honestly say, seeing her in the hospital a week after it happened was the most horrifying thing i have ever experienced.

Her assault has made me think more about life and people in general....yes i have been through some real shitty situations and i have seen and experienced horrible things but i just..i dont know...i guess in a way i just assumed that things would happen to me but not anyone close to me...and now that i have seen how another person has hurt my friend so much, it makes me angry. it makes me hate this world and the people in it. It has made me realize that there are so many more messed up people in the world than i thought. i cant believe someone would want to hurt someone so bad.

I have softened my heart a lot since the incident though and have talked to God about it. I know this world isnt perfect and horrifying things happen like this to people everyday. i just cant wait to get away from all this!

I thought about so much that i wanted to write about but i cant remember so that will have to wait until the morning.