Thanksgiving Weekend

I havent had time to write but ive been meaning to write for a couple days. Sadly thanksgiving break is ending and i have no motivation to go back to school. I went shopping on friday at 5 to get the door busters. It was super fun, especially since i went with my cousin Jay who i havent seen since august! He goes to Calvin College in Michigan. I saw a lot of my friends that day actually. My friend Devan goes to Dominican in New York and it was really hard at first when she left for college. I havent seen her since august either so it was so nice to finally see her again. I also saw my friends sammie, jack, ellie, britta, ayo and a couple other people. It was good to see them but also bad. I have a really hard time when people leave. To me, it seems like people always leave and when im finally able to move on, deal with it and know things will never be the same, they come back. and i get thoughts of all the memories and fun times we use to have. it made me really sad friday because its like theyre all moving on with their lives and meeting new people, living on their own, idk just growing up. and im stuck, having to get through this year, not really moving forward, not meeting new people and living the same 'ol life they all got away from. Idk, maybe its just jealousy but i really wish i could be where theyre at.

Yes, i saw ellie again. it was so good to see her! i had a bad night on thanksgiving (thanksgiving was fun, it was just my thoughts at night i couldnt control) and i talked to her. She always makes me feel better even if she doesnt say much. I miss being close with her but shes matured so much, met her lifelong friends and has an amazing boyfriend! so im hoping when i go to college ill grow up as well and be able to get to where she is at so we can become close again, or maybe not idk. Joel Osteen said people come into your life and leave. theyre considered seasonal friends and if they leave, it was meant to happen. Im just hoping thats not the case for her.

I also had a tennis tournament saturday and sunday. It was doubles and my partner was Benetta Jones. We got second! we should have gotten first but we were really rusty.

Last thing thats on my mind. I really wish i was a good writer. I want to write a book so bad. i know exactly what i want to write about, i just am not very good at writing so when i try, it always seems so sloppy and unintelligent. It may just be me but idk. I do need to figure out how to become a better writer so maybe one day i can write a book. We'll see.

KHO