my day

Today was not an eventful day. I actually had a really late night last night. I was up doing bad habits and thinking too much, but thats kinda how every weekend goes for me. Anyways, because of my night, i slept in till 11:30 which felt good. i went downstairs to help my mom get ready for thanksgiving to try to get my mind off of things. I feel like no matter what, i cant control my thoughts or turn them off so i try to stay as busy as possible. I went to Barnes and Noble too. Im looking for a book about all religions and their beliefs. I want to be able to defend my faith especially when ill be going to college next year. I also feel like i need to grow in my faith. Its not as strong as id like it to be and when i get really low, i need to be able to rely on God and not on other people because people come into my life and leave and God is the only one that stays constant. but i struggle with that. ANYWAYS, i got accepted to Northern Iowa today and also got a 4,000 dollar scholarship! Its not my first choice, its my third but im super relieved because at least i have a backup. 

I talked to my friend Ellie. Shes two years older than me and really strong in her faith. She also has a boyfriend whom she turned christian! that sentence doesnt sound like it made sense but you know what i mean. Shes really matured over the past two years. When i was a sophomore and she was a senior, we went on a mission trip and we became really close. She helped me with a lot of issues i was dealing with and shes always been there for me since. I really look up to her and today i got to talk to her. She seems to always know what to say and she always has answers but today she didnt have all the answers. and because of what we were talking about, it worries me. but i know in the end she'll make the right decision. She always does. 

The night just consisted of painting and then going to my twin brother, Andrews game. He lost. 

Its 1:10 and i decided to write on here to prevent myself from thinking too much. I dont really know how this works or how people read or comment but if you can, you should! k night. KHO